Hi you four and all who are praying,

Thank you so much for the encouraging words.  Sometimes it seems like you have it all together and as in my case my family really depends on me for strength when in reality I feel like I am the one who needs their support.  I re-read the post I wrote and felt bad about how weak I come across.  I feel that I should know better because I have a Father in Heaven who has my welfare in His big, big hands.  But just so that you all know I am so very grateful for every thing I have and I thank My Lord for His goodness.

Eileen I am so happy that you have found a place to stay, praise Him.  I know, I know that we are in good hands.

Which brings me to what you said Penny:" I felt He wanted me to say those words "homeless shelter" to neutralize their power to paralyze you."  What is of note in this is that the same words came to my mind, "homeless shelter", and I actually had a dream about it where some of my well-off friends and I found ourselves in.   In the dream what stood out was that I was better able to handle being homeless than they were, and just as you said ("The fear of "the worst that could happen" had lost its chokehold and you were free; you were actually thankful to be exactly where you were as you helped others get through the same battle you had just been through."), in the dream I was able to keep the younger ladies strong, we would he lp those who were new to the lifestyle and many were brought to Christ.  Now I don't know that it's a preview of what's to come, but as you said I can't let fear paralyze me.  Thank you for these very words.

Joe and Samson, the most touching thing in all of this is that here I am, crying my heart out in gratitude as I read the wonderful words of encouragement you all, who are strangers to me, are sending me.  I feel the love that comes across from you all here and it amazes me that those who should be close to me (in-laws, family members) are the ones who condemn, yet, here you are not knowing much about me at all,yet, you are praying and encouraging me.  Thank you, thank you to all of you and to those who read the posts and may not reply but pray nevertheless for all the prayer requests.  I am so touched and grateful.  I will draw strength from this and continue the battle until Our Lord says it's time to come home.

Thank you for letting me cry to you, now I can be strong for my family.
I truely love you Doves.

Barbara