then later on, I will send her a
little card saying very simply: "It appears I have done something to
offend you ~ and if so, I ask that you please accept my apology."
THEN.... just let it go at
that!
For whatever reason, she didn't
think the friendship important enough to keep it going.... and I find that
very sad & hurtful.... but little by little, I'll bounce back. I
ordered myself a book (hasn't come in yet) called, "What did I do?" ~ the story
of how women won't tell you when the friendship is over...... maybe
it'll help some.....??
Believe me, I had considered many
times & so often gave her the benefit of the doubt in thinking about
the depression that she deals with -- the problems with her extended
family, etc. etc. but yet, none of this stands in her way to have
relationships with other people.... so it's just with me..... Let's see, I
really don't mean to wear a halo here.... but Jeepers!! I've done
countless favors for her over the years. {there also comes into play
here: "well, look at all I've done for her!!"....} After I
mentally added up all the gifts bestowed & favors performed over the
years.... I thought.....
wow..... I must be **QUITE
THE SCOUNDREL**, right!!?? {insert little EVIL devilish icon
here!! GRRRR!!!}
hahha -- I can see why she
dislikes me so much! ;) *kidding!*
Truthfully, I tried my best to be the kind of friend to her that I would want
for myself. She did not reciprocate ..... & now -- again, "for
whatever reason", just loathes me.
But you know what -- we are
sooo very close to the Tribulation hour, that I believe the way she's treated me
is but a foreshadowing of it!! Because during the
Trib, people will not be able to trust ANYONE!! ~ not even their
mate, or child or mother, father, etc. etc. etc. ~ certainly not their best
friends or neighbors!! Micah 7:5 Do not trust in a friend; Do not put your
confidence in a companion; Guard the doors of your mouth From her who lies in
your bosom. {sure enough .... many times, the Holy Spirit nudged me to not be
giving *too much info* to this person.... but did I LISTEN??!! So
obviously God could see into the future, and maybe was trying to get my
attention -- to stop me. Maybe I wouldn't have been hurt so much that
way...}
Much harder to get over b/c she
lives pretty dadgum close & we're bound to run into one another..... but God
is my helper!! I'll take it one day at a time & DO MY BEST to
not obsess!! I'll admit, often hard to do, because my hurt has run
so deeply....
Heather, people are showing their T R U
E C
O L O
R S right now!!
As Christians, we now have the opportunity to flex our Jesus-loving muscles
& instead of focusing on our hurts, we instead have the opportunity &
responsibility to pray for the blessing of these people who -- for whatever
reason -- have turned on us.
Matt 5: 44 But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who
curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use
you and persecute you,
"Lord Jesus, the love of people down here has turned bitterly COLD .....
brrr!!!! {shiver-shiver!!} How we long to see Your Face,
to spend forever basking in the warmth of YOUR love!! Even so, COME
LORD JESUS!!"
And God's people said....????!!!
:)