Shalom Deborah:

Please, I've been where you are ...  MANY  TIMES!

Take a DEEEEEEP breath and ... let ... go!

YHVH, The Father, will make ALL, ALL, ALL things work together for good to
those who believe on Him.  He does not abandon His Own!

What you "think" is perfect might not be so.  Could these jitters be allowed
again to put the focus on YHVH?  I can say  WITHOUT  DOUBT  that The Father
never forsakes us!  Been the way of  "DEEEEEEP  breaths" many times so am
able to witness to letting go!

Dianne
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A diagrammed timeline chart of the Revelation Seals:
http://home.centurytel.net/grafted-promise/endtimeline.html