So I have been very very busy the last week.  My husband hurt himself at work and know has to have knee surgery on his ACL and miniscious.    This surgery is now scheduled for 7/14/2011.   On top of that I have to drive my son across the state of California to meet his dad for his summer vacation.    Anyways I have been trying to get last minute things handled and it has taken a toll on me.   

You see my husband did not treat me very well when I had surgery last year and I am feeling very upset about his surgery.   Yesterday he said he should get a bell so he could ring it at the bed when he needed me.   I am not a servant!    The day after my surgery he left me by myself so he could visit his mother and then he went back to work that Monday and then fires came that week and I was all alone.   He was looking for a date online during this time and I asked the Lord to please rapture me because I am tired of trying to be with people who just don't want to get saved.   Not only that when I talk about the Lord, he burps or sings.    The only thing that is going to get my husband saved is the rapture!

In any case I have not been too happy.    But even with this new development, the Lord is with me.   He gave me a dream.

I was dreaming my husband was on crutches and had to go down a very, very steep ski slope.   The weather was good and the snow was great, but the slope was the scariest and many people who attempted that slope died.   (This slope meant the tribulation).   In any case he had to ski this slope and yet he couldn't because he was on crutches.   All of a sudden the Lord showed me to give myself so we could finish the race.   If I did not help him with his surgery, he would end up going to hell.   And I needed to help him before the rapture, and he would finish the race and make it to salvation sometime in the tribulation.   So with that, I saw him needing to go down this terrible slope and I plunged myself on the slope and told him to "get on my back" and I took him to the finish line of this slope.   I truly believe he needs this knee surgery so that he will have a good knee in the tribulation.

Now the doctor said that his recovery from ACL could be anywhere from 4-9 months.  And that depends on a lot of variables.   So I am not exactly sure what the Lord is telling me from this dream.   Is the Lord saying that sometime after his surgery in the month of July the Lord will rapture the church?   Are the fires from last year and the surgery that I went through last July a sign of what my husband will go through this coming July?   Is the Lord asking me to make sure that my husband fully recovers from this surgery and gets back to his job without any difficulty?   If that is the case, he may not get back to work until March - April 2012.    I understand that the Lord wants the bride to show mercy to the lost so that when the rapture happens that they will understand why they were left behind.   However I am also not sure how much more mocking and hatefulness the Lord wants the bride to endure.      

If anyone has any discernment what the Lord is saying about this, I appreciate it.  

My son did have a dream and around the time of the rapture he said that the upstairs carpet was ripped out.   My husband yesterday said that maybe during his recovery that we should rip out the carpet and put black bamboo flooring.    Now again, is just this conversation a fulfillment of my son's dream, or is it to be taken literal that we really will remove the carpet?     Time is coming to a close!