and Henry Heron"
Hi John and Doves,
Myra - I often think of you and Henry Heron. I haven't seen my
Heron in a long time. Perhaps he/she is busy with their family -
this time of summer. Whatever the case - I have always found
that you enable me to remember those posts of late 2010. I mean
- I remember them, clearly - but things seem to lose their
importance, or sharpness, over time. I recall the insight our
LORD gave me, the weekend prior to 22nd Feb 2011 (Christchurch
earthquake). The number 5 came up very strongly (I shall look
for that post when I have time) Do you remember........the
elevator stopping at floor 5? The Fallen Angels advert? I may be
completely out of the line here, but those insights are looming
large now. I simply cannot believe that our LORD would gift us
these insights for nothing. They have never left me - the
Christchurch earthquake was the true signal given to me - as
well as my fleece request. Our LORD has given us freedom to ask
for confirmation and you, Myra, have been the confirmation for
many months now. Especially regarding our Heron.
As we watch the drama of our current reality unfold, we still
question our own perceptions. How easily does the bizarre become
the new norm?? I see the news and have started thinking, "Hmmm -
typical". Instead of being outraged, I have numbed my senses.
Otherwise it would be difficult to cope. I'm sure we all feel
exactly the same. I have my down days, where I feel like our
LORD is silent. Then there are the up days where our LORD seems
to be virtually throwing the signs at me. I wonder why things
have to be so cryptic - so oblique. This giant guessing game.
It's confusing and has rendered me pretty useless at every day
life. Besides being enormously good at cleaning, my brain is
fixated on our LORD and it's hard to focus on the practical
business of earning a buck. Can this be right? Surely not. All I
can do is pray. It's all very well being told that we are not to
love this world - to be apart from this world - but it's a tough
world to thrive in if one is not passionate about the world. I
don't like to flounder - it brings on insecurity. I crave to
feel secure again.
*Sigh* Just letting off steam, Myra.
God Bless you, my dear sister in Christ. And all Doves