Corey Anne (15 July 2011)
"Mary Adams"
Mary,
I think I am the reason you felt led to share your story of your house
and how it came into fruition. I have quietly been going through
one of the most difficult few weeks, and I am struggling. You see,
my husband of 18 years out of the blue told me a few weeks ago that he
didn't love me anymore. He said that he was only there because of
the children, and once they are grown, he's out of here. He talked
to me for three hours and wouldn't let the kids (who were worried about
me) come into the room. The next morning and ever since, he has
walked around like nothing's wrong. We are also suffering
financially, and this is new to me. We are self-employed and in
the construction business, and work is definitely slim. And what
work we've been blessed, with we don't get paid for without practically
pitching a fit. We are currently dealing with that now, AGAIN, and
it's just so very tiring. I have been going to the grocery store
and buying a few things at a time, and I can see the worry in my kids'
eyes. I keep reminding them of all that our Heavenly Father has
already done for us, and we are o.k. It's just draining to live
like this, and no doubt this has contributed to my husband's woes.
I will say with him revealing all of this to me that it has made me
reexamine what kind of wife I have been. I'm home with the kids
and homeschool and do whatever he asks when he asks it; but I must say
as my walk with the Lord has intensified, I have gone against his wishes
for the sake of my self-righteousness instead of obeying him and
allowing the Lord to change his heart. Anyway, I just wanted to
thank you for blessing me with this witness.
In Hashem's name,
Corey Anne