Barbara Bivins (11 July 2011)
"Re: Feeling different from 18 years ago"
In a post you said:" He is our Father and like many children we may not
understand why we weren’t allowed something or why something happened to us but we
know he is protecting us in the former and teaching us or preparing us to help
someone who goes through the same thing in the latter."
this is one of the many reasons for our affliction, to make us more
empathetic to others. We then receive the gift of personal experiences
in order to encourage, give hope to those who are also suffering around
In response to do we feel different than before I would have to say
that things are ever changing the only exception being God Himself, His
Word, and Our Heavenly Spiritual Counselor. When young I thought of
about what my future life might look like. In the process I became
focused on these thoughts making them an image that gave me my "dreams"
as in the "American Dream".
Now being in my fifties I can tell you that the "dreams" I myself
had fabricated obviously didn't not come true. As I mature each and
every day, through constant contact with The Holy Spirit, a clear
picture is starting to form. God's plan was totally different than mine
and as I look back I see why. As the quote above says, the
preparations had started. All that I went through, in the self-centered
way, was not a punishment, or a curse or a stroke of bad luck, no it
was God's plan for His reasons alone. Hallelujah!!!
Many of us are suffering right now for various reasons and when in
reflection we would like to find justification of why "us". Instead we
should know why us. I knew why me when my experiences, good and bad,
started to impact friends and family members. God tells us that there
is nothing new under the sun, therefore, if we look back we might find
how closely knit together we are. I remember comforting a hurting soul
by giving hope that whatever affliction they face it will one day pass
from extreme and severe heart-pain to sustainable ache. I still have
reminders of my woes, but with understanding how Our Father is using
these woes, they for some reason are easier to bear!
I believe we went through some decades of relative peace and
security in this country and we are now arriving at a period of chaos.
It can be seen all over the world and in most aspects of life. This
would totally explain why we are so anxious, remember when we were young
in anticipation of birthday presents we wouldn't be able to fall
asleep, our stomach churned...just like now, we know we have arrived to
those days spoken of, the end ones.
A few years not so long ago most of you on 5 Doves knew when my most
severe woes began to happened. I was so scared, husband had left,
health was deteriorating, no money, no job...nothing. I receive such
encouragement from a lot of you and I strongly believe that had you not
be there for me I would have sunk rapidly. Today I am still without any
income, ready to move with another daughter, health is back up, pain
still persistent. But what really has changed is my faith in the Lord
that as His I have to trust and rejoice, even in time of sorrows I have
to count them as blessings. It is those experiences that reveal to us
the true nature of Our God. He has made us strong in character by
imparting Himself through the Holy Spirit in us. Simple truth but most
powerful one. Truly if God is for us who can be against us? Who?
Times have changed and logic let us know that we are close to the
total end of what we know. Rejoice be cause it can only mean one thing
and that's if we look closely we will see Our Lord approaching right
now, when will He takes us up we are not sure. But as the spring brings
the rain, the Father brings us His Son. The season is here, rejoice
even when you don't feel there is nothing to rejoice about the mere fact
that you are going through times of trouble knowing God's in control is
In His Love.