Hello Doves.  I am not sure if any of you ever feel this way, but I have struggled with this off and on for a long time.  It is just that thorn in my side that God's all-sufficient grace covers over and over.  As I was reading God's word tonight, I just stopped and wrote down these words of confirmation of why I can always rest in my Jesus.
 
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Although many times, my flesh wants to question, to doubt, and to wonder, am I really Yours?  Is my faith strong enough?  Am I really special to you Lord??  I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE, and I CHOOSE TO REST!
 
-- I trust that while resting in Your arms, you are working all things for my good and Your glory.
-- I rest in knowing that you are working in me at Your own pace and at Your own level, as You so desire, and that desire is perfect.
-- I rest every second of every single day knowing that You will not cease until You have completed Your work in me.
-- I rest in knowing that Your love for me is beyond my own comprehension; I trust that it stretches further than science can measure.
-- I rest in knowing that I don't know why, but you do, and that every thing has its own purpose.
-- I rest that you know my heart as well as any physical or mental ailment or defeciency that may keep me in bondage, and I trust in Your abiltiy to remove these things out of Your immense love for me and for Your own glory.
-- I rest in knowing that Your love for me cannot be interrupted or changed.
-- I trust that You are love, and I have been chosen as the recipient of that love.
-- I rest in knowing that You chose me, and Your decision cannot be changed or reversed.
-- I rest in knowing that an Almighty God thought about me, about fellowshipping with me, and that His own murder was worth saving me so that I can be with Him forever.
-- I rest in Your perfect power, grace, mercy, and love, and knowing that these very things live in me and sustain me.
-- I trust that I have been purchased by the blood of the Lamb, and I cannot be returned or exchanged.  This purchase is final!
-- I rest in knowing that I am truly Yours, Jesus, forever and ever!!
 
No matter what I may feel, think, or hear...  I choose to rest in You Jesus, and I trust that this pleases You.