Hi Clay, Your letter has made me so sad!! I can imagine how you feel.  I have the address of a fantastic doctor which Im sure can help you but then we need to know what type of illness you suffer from. I will go out of my way to help you. Could you please let me know what it is and I can then forward it to this doctor. I dont want to mention his name here because it may be seen as an advertisement about him.. Feel free to email me if you do not want to discuss it on Doves. Me email is robertcross660@yahoo.com  and Im in Australia. Also knowing what type of problem it is makes it easier to pray for because we can then together call upon our great HEALER, JESUS CHRIST  to touch every problem in your life. I am in Australia.  Where two or more agree, there HE will be.  Kind regards. Leigh