As I have quietly Sat down today, and looked at my life in the "Lord". I can so often here that sweet  still voice say to me, " Be still my daughter, I am here. I feel your pain, I am going through this fiery trial with you." I would often ask , Father why am I suffering so? Why is this pain so intense? Why must I face death time after time? Again  that quiet sweet voice would say," you suffer because you are so deeply loved by me."
   Finally after some years, I was able to face the pain, and feel death hover over me and there were no more whys! There the why had changed to thanksgiving, as I saw in retrospect what the Father had really done for me.
   Yes He allowed my physically body to suffer and to go through much pain, and a tremendous amount of torment. He had allowed Satan to place a thorn in my body so that He could reveal His beloved Son to me. The Lord of Lord and King of Kings J! esus Christ.
   How does a human heart put in words that can be understood by other men and women in the Lord. How can I tell you, how much your heavenly Father treasures you. He is so very proud of you His Children. He dances with glee when you are happy, He is joyful when you are joyful, He is sad when you are sad. He cries with you when you cry and He saves each and every tear.
   When you walk the dark hills, and go deep into the valley of despair, God the Father goes with you. You never walk this life with Christ alone. God the Father, Jesus the Son and the Holy Spirit take every step that you take. They are always there with you.
   Many of us are called upon to walk very different than anther's walk. Yet none of these walks are smooth, you face many dangers,as you walk on for Christ, you will face many trials much torment, much terror. But you will also find much joy, much happiness and a love that hu! mans are unable to explain. You will find out who you truly are. We must all realize that this world is not our home, it is our Calvary walk, as we press on to the high calling of God in our life.  Calvary Road is always uphill;;, and you will each and every one carry that cross that He has given you to carry. The question is How will you carry your cross. Will you be able to look at those around you, and always say Father Forgive them, for they know not what they do. Will you weep for the sins of your loved ones? What type of a malefactor will you be, as you are nailed to the cross that you and you alone bear?
   Will you curse God and deny Him , or will you say, "I go on in the path that Jesus has chosen and I will lay down my life for Him. I will allow people to trample all over me, because the trampled all over my Saviour.
   Will you face your trials and thank and Praise Jesus for each and every one of them. Becaus! e my dear ones if you are not facing trials where is Jesus in your life? When will we realize that every step in our life is appointed by the Father. They were appointed before the foundations of the world. God has given to you a walk of faith. When He comes will He find you walking that walk?
   Do we always place Him first in all things that we do and say or do we make Jesus go to the corner as we do our own will? Then do we run to Him in despair and ask why God why? could it have been that we got so busy in the world that we forgot Him?
   Did we remember to say Good Morning Lord, Good Night my beloved Father. I leave my spirit , my soul and my body in your beloved hands, I will accept all things that come my way, and thank You Jesus and Praise you Jesus.
   Yes Father I am finally growing up, even as I grow older every day I feel like a youngster in the Lord. I hover Father over your written Word to ! me. Thank You Father for giving me another day, another hug, another laugh, and the time to tell others about your Love.
              HERE I AM LORD USE ME
 
May you all be lifted up by my simple words and walk on dear Children, we will soon be going Home. Jesus says I am coming quickly. Be ready.
 
Agape
Zelma Pack