I Had a class on Watchman Nee re the spiritual man. We held a seed as an
example. For the seed to bring forth life the shell had to be cracked. For
us it is the same in the spiritual realm. Our soul wants to conrol and do
things our way. The spirit waits for the soul to decide to submit. When
Jesus carried the cross he embrassed it because it brought life.

Thank him for the pain. Don't dwell or moarn for the past. Change your
thinking. Changing our thinking will allow the Holy Spirit to come forth and
heal. It will allow the love of God to be real and evident in our life. It
will bring peace and life. Let go of the past, thank him for the now. Crack
your shell and enjoy his company now. Let him have his way.