I have a job where I serve the public. As we grow closer to Jesus coming back and closer to the tribulation I am always a phone call away from my life being made awful. I am in one of those situations now. its not my life I care about I want to focus on Jesus and warning others and watching and praying and being a dad while I can. The issue is that the evil one is playing hardball it seems he creates issues and distractions when he cannot get us to go back to sleep and follow the wide path to death everyone seems content to follow. They do not get the truth to their life that they have been decieved and have no hope in this world so they vehemently attack anyone who says that Judgement is coming and they have to turn from the world and their sins need to be repented of that they have to humble themselves. Thus world teaches women to dress up use makup and jewelry and flirt and men to chase women and be studly. They teach that who dies witht the biggest bank account instead of the biggest heart wins. So basically going along with the course of the world its entertainment, its priorities believing that we can be the masters of our destinies through technology and come to religion on our terms instead of humbling ourselves before a all powerful creator that is rightous and expects rightousness from his created is dismissed out of hand.
 
So everyone is going along like they do not know judgement is coming and that the mideat is going to explode and that their actions are going to be judged and so they can be manipulated at will by the god of this world into causing grief for the saints watching and praying and trying to seperate themselves from the filth of this world until Jesus comes. If they truly understood their entire life was a lie and deception unto hell and death ie the wide path we would see true repentance in the church. What we see except for the occasional horrified repentant man or woman who through the grace of God opens his eyes and sees that everything has been made a perverted counterfit of Gods creation designed to lead us as sheep to slaughter is a prideful lacadonian attitude that they got all their basis covered and God is just another social contact on their to do list. They taught astrology, makeup, writing, sports etc. Anything to make us prideful in ourselves and lustful in the flesh and that is the common attitude today. How can we warn those who dont want to hear and help those that do not care to notice the approaching fire.   
 
I am in need of prayer for protection from just such an attack designed to despair me of even life and keep me from watching and praying. Please pray for my deliverence from unreasonable men and women walking in the course of this world to the vanity of their minds since all do not have faith. I hate no one I am sick of trying to make people to understand they evil one just wants us all to follow his course to destruction and the path is paved with entertainment and work projects and activities and the pride that says we can solve our problems with our hands and our intellect. The pride that says morality is relative. The pride that says what we feel or think is the most important. True wisdom comes in realizing we are a creation in bondage to vanity and that we need to humble ourselves and follow our good shepard out of the wolf pit.
 
Please pray for me that God will lift me out of the pit that has been dug for me to fall into. For the despair I am fighitng I am trying to watch warn pray and clean myself of my logs please pray I be saved from those walking in the vanity of their minds the course of this world not knowing they are in a pit with no way out except a dying to self that leads to a humbling of pride that leads to acknowledgement of sin and repentance to a savior. Please pray for my deliverence from this vice that has been put around me please pray for my son afraid of his shadow in the dark. I just wanted to live for Jesus until He comes funny the world does not want to let me. The thing is they do not understand living for themselves they are dying to God dying to themselves means living for Jesus but means eternal life.
 
I am sorry for every sin I ever committed that put Jesus to death, I am horrfied reading about the superbowl halftime show it seemed more subtle in the 80's when she wore jeans and cute jackets and gushed like a virgin. We were decieved then it just seemed so remote now its like well Henry Kissenger said if you cannot hear the drums of war your deaf. if you cannot see the satanic in your face maddona black mass for what it was your blind. I just want to be found watching and waiting for Jesus so that I can escpae whats coming and more importantly this world is a cheap vain counterfit of heavan I know its not the real thing anymore it just leaves me wanting to go sit on the ark and close the door and wait not have to go out in it everyday and dance.
 
Footloose was making fun of the true church who wanted to be humble and pious and rightous saying to my generation it was ok to rebel and party we listened. But twhen the party ends there is hell to pay no one seems to want to or be able to think that way. Its like the drunk running up a bar tab knowing he cannot pay and is going to jail but as long as the drinks are flowing its all ok and the sober guy is the fool. someone had a dream on this site where he was trying to warn others and finanly had to run for the shed I want to leave the party its time to start running but there are people blocking the door. I am in a pit I am in need of urgent prayer we all need prayer please Lord let none of us watching be ashamed let them be ashamed who transgress without cause. Those putting me in despair do not even realize their being used its like the matrix where anyone not taking the red pill of jesus blood can become an agent at any time only Jesus can save me I am not worthy of His mercy but I hope I have helped and encouraged some on this site I am just hanging on by the tips of my nails for Jesus and pushed by a phone call and situation I cannot solve into a true despair while realizing in the past I was manipulated into situations that led me down the course of this world I do not want to be entangled in it again.