Dear Richard, thanks for your letter!  I just wanted to share with everyone what I have learned through some bad decisions.  LOL!   I am not condemning anyone or trying to make them feel bad.  I just see way too much prosperity gospel being teached out there as well as this teaching that if you say a sinner's prayer once you are saved and then there is no teaching of turning from your sin.   You go to the book store and what is there?   Books that have teachings on a better life, a new you with arrogant photos of the people writing the books on the cover.   I keep thinking of all the martyrs from all the ages who died horrible deaths and those that are suffering all over the world and I think to myself, what would these people say?   They would look at us and possibly say, I died this horrible death so that you may live a so called Christian life like this?   What an insult to all of the ages of saints who were eaten by lions, set on fire, and persecuted!    This is how I think!  I will stand before my family and those saints from the ages and I will bring honor to them when I stand before the King of Kings!   I am a filthy sinner still but I pray to Jesus that I may bring honor to Him and my family.   My son and I are the last generation, for all of my family has died!   They are in Heaven and yet I am 33 years old!     My thoughts are ever increasing to those that are in their 90's who are close to death!   It has hit too close to home for me.
    
I went down the aisle and prayed the sinners prayer over and over and over again because I knew I did not have a born again experience!   And even once I had a born again experience and I went back to my sin WORSE than before I got saved!   And for these kind of people who knew the Lord and went back to the sins they had done before they had the born again experience, for those that knew Him are the worst places in hell they are sent!   I had not read the Bible!  I had taken on Jesus name and was making a mockery of Him.   

I met Jesus in 1998 I saw myself in hell and He came to me and rescued me out.  He was about 6'1" and had a white shimmering robe on that sparkled like diamonds.  He had enormous wings this time to show His awesome protection.   And His robe was long and swayed in the wind with enormous power.   When I got closer He had jewels in His robe and He sparkled, it was so gorgeous I can't begin to tell you.   I was sitting in total darkness with others in hell and He rescued me.  This is where I would have gone if I would have died.  It was a darkness so thick it penetrated through every ounce of your being.  It was so lonely you could not shake the loneliness, you could not   I was on a roll for a year and did not drink, watch secular movies, listen to secular music, only listened to church stuff.   But then after a year I fell into drinking alcohol.   Then the sin that I fell into was worse than the sin before I got saved.  You see I did not realize I had married Jesus, taken on His name.  I took for granted this marriage and was lazy and thought, He will take me back.   I was an unfaithful wife and took for granted His grace.   Then while in sin the Lord sent me a husband.   This husband appeared as faithful but yet I still did not repent of my drinking and sin.   This man ended up looking at pictures online and cheated on me.   I lost my job, my house and my marriage because he then assaulted me.   I fell on my face and repented of the alcohol and the sin and turned away from it after He came to me as a huge lion with eyes of fire and told me to stop.  I knew that He was serious and He would have thrown me either into hell or I would have had some major problems in life.

Then I started walking with Jesus and wanting a relationship.   I started on the dating scene after my divorce but thankfully the Lord sent me a new husband.   Right before we got married I had a vision and at that time when I came out of my other sins you see there was some overflow of other sins even though I stopped drinking....I saw Jesus standing on a mountain and He said "Will You Marry Me?"   When I came out of my sins and walked away from all of them for good, and destined myself to live a life close to Jesus and not habitually use Him, He asked me!    I was chosen then to be apart of the Bride, to be apart of the Rapture....He would have never came to me if I had not walked down that path.   But I feel that this walk was always part of my destiny since I have always dreamed of the rapture since a little girl.  Jesus has came to me and worked on my heart at the times He was ready for me to be changed and my heart was open.

My new husband, no matter how many videos or audio clips I have shown him it does not change his heart.  It is not ready.  He dreams of war, being in Israel during revival, the tribulation and this he knows is his destiny and he said when Jesus makes it real to him, he will accept it and walk down that path.   If Jesus has come to us and our hearts have turned towards him, we should stay married to Him and not mess up the marriage.   How many chances can one person get?   Jesus is faithful to forgive us but we have to say we are sorry and turn from the sin when He comes to us and says STOP!   We have to respond to the call of repentance.  

You see He chastises those He loves and if we don't repent He can either send us something like a child that has problems, money or legal woes, a car accident, natural disasters, a loss of a loved one, and the list goes on or He can just say forget it and through us into hell.   Salvation is a very, very serious thing and making the rapture should be as important to us as making it on American Idol is to a singer....they sit outside all day and night in whatever weather conditions to get an audition after driving 12 hours.   The seriousness of the rapture should not be taken lightly at all, it should be like sprinting in a marathon not looking to the left or to the right making sure you make it.   We spend so much time on making sure our bank account is balanced, our houses are clean, our retirement is handled but these things are fading before our eyes.   If we could imagine at all times that our loved ones in Heaven are watching our every move (as well as Jesus and the angels) would it change our behavior.   We all want to please Jesus, but don't we want to bring honor to the entire lineage of our family throughout the ages?   We will stand before the BEMA Seat of Jesus with our entire lineage watching us and wanting to know WHO THIS BRIDE IS!  And what rewards did we get and how did they play a part in the most exciting time in history!   We are not a group of random people sitting here on the internet piecing random clues together.   We are a group of people chosen for such a time as this from the beginning of the foundation of the world and the finish line is in view and our minds should be thinking as eternal creatures at all times.

He is COMING!!!   Be ready!   If the household would have known the time their master came they would have not been lazy, drunken, with a dirty house, chores not completed and items not stocked.   They would have realized the master would have come back at any moment and let's make the place perfect because he is an awesome master that we love with every ounce of our being, ready to die for him at any time.   Let us not be lazy in our posts and sleepy and depressed.   Let us be on fire!