Charles, you seem so tormented? Do you not know that your reward will be great in Heaven? You will be blessed for your stand. Praise God, whether or not the Rapture happens within the year or early next year - it CANNOT be far off. Our sufferings here are nothing to the Glory we shall witness!
I am not down playing your troubles. It can be difficult, put Jesus never gives us more than we can bear. Rejoice in your trials. For whatever reason, which will soon be made clear to you, you have been chosen to be where you are right now.
I really have no advice for you as to how to handle your specific circumstance other than to let you know, what I am sure you are ready know. Lean on Jesus's strong arm and He will carry you when you can go no futher. We are almost there.
Your son sounds like he is very young? Do you believe he will be left-behind? I don't. He will be in Heaven with you and our Precious Saviour. Glory and Honor to Him alone!
Your Sister in Christ - Bonnie M.