Gary Newman (6 Dec 2010)


Hi John & Doves:

I felt the Ruach Ha Kodesh wanted me to share with the doves my experience of smoking, as I think some might be helped. If you feel this testimony is not suitable for the doves site please refrain from publishing it.


I was smoking before I came to the Lord, and stopped for eleven years. I started again (idiot), and was on and off for a number of years, usually more on than off. I found that each time I stopped it was harder to quit. About three years ago the Holy Spirit was really getting on my case about smoking, but I didn’t really want to respond. I thought; what’s the big deal about smoking, I’m not hurting anybody! However I might try to justify myself it was not possible, the conviction of sin took away any peace. It is the absolute and wonderful goodness of the Lord that led me to repentance. Whilst smoking I knew I would not make the rapture; Be ye holy for I AM holy.

The devil told me; You are mine! I could not really contest his claim as he had legal grounds to lay claim on me. I suffered from night terrors, having some quite fearful experiences. I began to feel sad because I was not clean. The Lord had spoken and said ‘God is not mocked, be not deceived what a man sows he shall also reap. I continued smoking. Rebellion (disobedience) is as the sin of witchcraft), so I was getting into a miserable state.

As soon as I awoke one morning it was as though the Lord was in my room, in the manner of an indifferent judge and said to me matter-of -factly; ‘The soul that sinneth it shall die’. I realised in that moment that we can flatter ourselves regarding our relationship with the Lord and think God is our big mate and He will overlook our ‘little’ sins. A couple of words from the Lord put me straight, for now I knew this was life or death!

I quickly dressed, ran out to the study, got on my knees and determined to stay there until I received Gods’ forgiveness and deliverance. For I knew to smoke or refrain from smoking is a choice because it is written; Sin shall not have dominion over you and let not a double minded man think he shall receive anything (deliverance in this case) from the Lord.

After only thirty minuets God had met with me and delivered me. For a few months I thanked the Lord morning and evening for His deliverance, the night terrors disappeared as my body was being cleansed. It was only afterwards I began to realise how profane I was in continuing in this transgression. Now being totally released the thought to smoke doesn’t even enter my head.

If we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all iniquity.

How aware I am that it is only by the blood and righteousness of Jesus Christ that this righteousness, joy, peace and extreme hope is purchased for us by the grace of God. If we walk in the light as He is the light we have fellowship with one another and the blood of Jesus Christ cleanses us from all sins


Psa 32:1  A Psalm of David, Maschil. Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.

Psa 32:2  Blessed is the man unto whom the LORD imputeth not iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no guile.


We have one shot at this life before our eternity, and we have one shot at the rapture, dare we jeopardize it?  Life and death is before you, therefore choose life!