Chris K (20
Dec 2010)
"Re: David Blackman "Hot or Cold?""
David and all the Doves,
This is one of
the most profound questions a mature Christian can pose. What is
Worship and how do we do it? I struggled with this for many years,
having come from a very worldly family and a strong musical
heritage...almost all of it modern.
I had always loved
Pentecostal-style worship for its passion and intimacy, not to mention,
everyone was welcome to participate. Yet, between circumstances and
God's own word as multiple witness, I was shown that most of this
passion was just a personal form of excitation of the flesh! And so
many distractions when you have very talented and forceful singers and
musicians. Then ego enters into the picture, and that certainly cannot
lead to Worship in Spirit and in truth.
One has to be in a
small group of truly devoted disciples to avoid the distractions and
excitation that the flesh is constantly offering us..more and more rare
these days. And then it must be in peace and simplicity...complex,
modern forms are always contrary to this.
I prayed much on
this matter and at about the same time the Lord was drawing me out of
organized congregational worship services, I was given a gift. I rarely
speak of it to anyone, since it seems so personal and I didn't get the
Fathers OK on that sharing. But, we are so close now, and we're all
sharing so much with the Body these days, I' certain its appropriate at
this time.
I awoke one morning at around
4am from a dream in which there was no image or view of any kind...all
there was were two women' voices singing the most beautiful and simple
old sounding, folk-style song. Rather Irish or Celt sounding, and kind
of familiar (maybe a little like "Scarborough Fair"), but, distinctive
and simple. Anyway, the tune was still going through my mind after I
awoke enough that I was able to pluck a little bit of it out on an old
guitar I had around...and commit it to memory.
Two nights
later I awoke at around the same time and began to think about that
music and at the same time remembered that in my computer
software program called E-Sword(which I love dearly) was a copy of
whats known as the "Scottish Psalter", which is the Psalms of David set
to meter, so they can be sung as worship. So I thought that I would try
to sing them to the tune I had heard in my dream, which I had been
practicing a little....as I started, the most amazing sensation came
over me. You know that confident knowledge that only the Holy Spirit
can provide...that God Himself has just given you a gift beyond measure
and without price.
The Psalter fit perfectly, of course and
it began to dawn on me over the next hour or so, that the Lord had
answered my question and shown me a true form of Worship. Perhaps THE
true and perfect form of Worship. To sing His Psalms back to Him has
been the greatest joy and most peace giving moments of my entire
new-born life! I've repeated a few of the Psalms in front of fellow
believers only a couple of times, with very little response...its not
for exiting ones flesh. And, that's usually what we expect out of music.
So, true collective worship, in Spirit and in truth, in this day and
time may very well be a near impossibility, and yet, with GOD all
things are possible!
you're brother, Chris K.
P.S. If the Lord allows(and we have enough time) and anybody wants to hear, I'll share.........cpkopko@hotmail.com