Barbara Bivins (8
"To Linda Prayer Request"
As a mother who has
experienced something similar I understand very much how you feel and
what is going through your mind.
The first thing I had to
do was to take the focus off of myself as the devil surely was trying
to distract me by sending thoughts of guilt and of questioning
myself. Could I have stopped it, was it me who indirectly caused
my child to want to ...or how come I didn't see it coming...you see
where I am going?
Once the focus turned back to the Lord and I
had humbly asked Him to take over, things started to look a little
different. I could truly concentrate my attention to those around
me. My child was in the ward as your grandson and I knew she was
safe for the moment so I took time to go to each and everyone of my
family, (kids,husband) individually praying with them, crying with
them. You see there is so much more power in prayers when we
unite together, the bond is tighter and the devil has a harder time
trying to squeeze in. Once we came together, usually at the
dining room table, and we shared in our sorrows, our despair, our
prayers, we were able to make a "united front" against any further
attacks and we always saw the fiery darts coming at us as when one of
us was down the others stood watch. Greater is He that is in us
than he who is in the world, it is the truth, the whole truth and
nothing but the truth. Give it all to Him and trust Him.
will be important for your grandson to have someone he can feel safe
and comfortable to talk to even if it is not one of you, it was hard at
one point for me to see my child confide is a stranger over me but
there again I was getting in God's way, so it might happen to your
family too. Counseling will be important but always remember who
is the most wonderful Counselor of them all. Cast all of your
doubts that God can do something aside and firmly believe and stand
strong as you have the best at your side.
I hope this helps a
little to truly pass you the message that we are all in God's Big hands
and He loves you, He has it under control.
May the Holy Spirit
guide you and your family and protect your grandson. Pay close
attention to him when you visit him at the hospital, his demeanor will
tell you a lot.
Now I am praying for strength, love and wisdom
for you dear sister, take comfort in Our Lord! May the Lord wraps
His arms around you spiritually and physically.
In His Love,
one day down the road you will have the opportunity to tell your
grandson how selfish his actions had once been....I did and my daughter
admitted she had not wanted to think about it at the time but that
eventually she had had to face the fact. :)