First of all, I don't mean to simply write in to complain or sound apathetic in any regard. The mere fact that I even faithfully go to five doves proves somewhat to myself that I've at least got one eye up towards heaven.
However, since 1998, Yeshua has put a deep love for end time events in my heart. As most have in the past, looking at prophetic events sometimes brings excitement and sometimes waiting and then sometimes lethargy. I'm here to tell you that my exciting years were 1998/99, 2000/01, 2002, 2007, 2008..and well frankly I'm running out of excitement. I know that I know that things are quickly escalating towards the main event, but these years of extreme excitement have really given birth to an almost apathetic attitude toward the waiting game. I'm actually tired of hearing about a peace agreement in Israel, since I've been hearing that heavily from the days of the Palestinian intifada...frankly, go for peace already...quit talking about it. Why you ask? Because I know that peace deal comes probably after the calling away and that means I'll be with Messiah getting ready for the Marriage Supper.
I just don't see how many more times we can say, "Well, Gog and Magog are just around the corner...and Israel is close to peace, or the antichrist is walking the earth in wait, and this sign in the heavens blew across the sky last night (forgive my attitude). Folks, it's so late in the game that if the economy falls any further and sin becomes more rampant, we might have to seek safety away in an underground bunker somewhere. I want the rapture to avoid all of the godlessness that prevails among many other reasons.
Now, all that being said, understand that I speak in the flesh right now and I truly am still waiting expectantly. My eyes are very focused toward heaven and now I have another year to put some things on the "List of reasons why this is the year". Among those: the Psalms 110-118, Iran, economy, Gog and Magog, signs in the heavens in 2014/15 (which I hope is the middle of the trib), etc. The only difference is that these lists are slowly losing their influence on me through the years.
Fellow believers in the faith, pray for me that I will receive an encouragement from the holy spirit the next few months if this is not the Rosh Hashanah of promise. I'm not sure how much more I can bear waiting.