Corey Anne (9 Aug 2010)
I need prayer for my
children. Just last week, I prayed in Wednesday night prayer
meeting in church for my children and the persecution they face
daily. I can handle being persecuted (for the most part), but I
feel for their tender hearts. It seems as if the devil heard my
despairing cry and launched an attack.
The very next
day, my son and I were waiting as my daughters took their dance
classes, and my 9 year old son brought his PSP. Apparently it has
internet access - my children are not allowed on the internet at home
unless to play a game I load and under strict supervision. Well,
this boy who is a couple of years older than my son loaded pornography
on my son's game system, and I discovered this from one of my son's
friends who my son showed it to. I am HORRIFIED!!! I am
trying not to overreact, but I am devastated that my son's innocence
has been abruptly ended. I am also shocked that my son didn't
come to me, but I think he was trying to look cool in front of this
older boy. I know for a fact that he knew nothing about any of this
prior to this time, because he and my youngest daughter have been
praying for me to get pregnant - not something my husband is in
agreement to - and telling me that G-d will handle it, and Daddy
doesn't have anything to do with it, so he doesn't have to know.
Then just today, I discovered my 13 year old
daughter did not get the job she trained for as an assistant dance
teacher at our dance school (her 10th year there.) I would not
allow her to work on Wednesday evenings because of church, and I now
found out she was not chosen. The odd thing is the younger
children flock to her. She has such a gift with kids. She
is actually going to open her own studio when she graduates. She
will be devastated when I tell her. She said she was warned
during training that she might not be chosen if she didn't sacrifice
her Wednesday nights. I can only hope G-d understands and
appreciates our difficult decision.
pray. It continues to feel heavier and heavier as we make
decisions against the grain of the world - homeschooling (our 9th
year), our value of church attendance, the way we shelter our children
(which comes under much scrutiny by those around us), etc.
Thanks for your prayers in advance.
Our Father's daughter,