Dear Tony,

It is weird but I know how you feel.  Since 2000 I feel as though I have been running.  Running from city to city, job to job.   I feel we get a period of peace for about a year and then the problems all come down:   job layoff, foreclosure, etc.   I feel in my opinion the saints that were destined for the rapture, those that have come to true holiness and repentance were given a 10 year window to gain rewards and they were totally unaware of it.   While we were fighting sin, temptation, anger over loss, fear, somehow the Lord got us through these trials and developed our character.  I truly feel those people who have overcome love of money, job, and shook off all kinds of sin such as alcohol, homosexuality, clubbing, gambling, serial dating, etc. during this time while enduring hardship and now are watching and being holy are ready.   If we had not gone through these 10 years of hardship I don't think most of us would be watching and would want our little world to stay the same.   Things appear to be great with me.  I haven't been thinner or in better shape, I have the house and husband I want, etc. but on the inside I am disgusted with the sin in our world and feel helpless to stop it.  I feel it trying to run me over and I feel like when I hear about what is going on I want to vomit.   Times have always been hard.  But times feel harder now because of the darkness that has come over the earth.   You know like in the 1800's you had to battle thieves and Indians on your land with fires and drought on your crops.   Sometimes you wondered how you would eat.  Then if you got an infection say in your leg from a wound a doctor may not get to you for several months and if you didn't have a ranch hand, you could lose the leg.   But most people loved the Lord and feared Him and those that didn't were trash who stayed in the city bar where the harlots were.   The men and women of the town stayed clear of these types.   But now, the good people of the town think nothing of being the ones who live in the city bar every night after work.   And they are doing their sins in the street in front of children.   In the old times there was one or two cities in the nation for sin like Las Vegas and Atlantic City.   But now every city is the same and even in the smallest, cleanest towns the hearts of man are wicked.   There is no where to go anymore.   I pray that during the judgment of America, the Lord will be merciful to us who have overcome and are now repentant and watching.   I pray if an earthquake comes that right before He will soul capture us, meaning we will die in our sleep before it happens.  If the event happens before the rapture and many people die, I pray for mercy that we will not endure pain.   I am taking it one day at a time now.  I am trying to stay away from too much news, but I do want to fight for things God hates.   I know He hates abortion, dividing the land of Israel, and homosexuality.   Get rid of these foundational sins and the rest can come down like a stack of cards in my opinion.   I realize right now to take one day at a time.  Make a phone call or email daily to fight evil in some way, make a donation no matter the cost small or big to a place close to God's heart, talk to a Christian friend once a week to vent, and try to get out and visit the elderly, sick, orphaned and homeless when you are led.   Sometimes talking or helping others in a worse situation really helps the time go by and you are able to deal with your own issues so easy!   Even sometimes the sick elderly love to give great advice since they came out of the Great Depression and World Wars.   They are just lonely.  

God bless you and I hope your situation and life is full of joy and beauty!

Anne