Good Lord, Mariel, it sounds to me like you ARE occupying... BIG TIME!  Don't be so hard on yourself... being a caregiver is no small task!  As for husbands, I'm with you... I couldn't be more grateful for MY loving husband, too, who has hung on through countless surgeries, etc., to be with me, because I would go totally NUTS without him!
 
Like I was led by the Spirit to say in my poem, "Something Right for God", Satan can only do what Father Yahweh PERMITS him to do, so don't you let him get you down!  That's why you have brothers & sisters... to lend you a hand when you need uplifting!  The closer we get to the Rapture, the harder Satan is working to pull us down.  But the Lord is ready to pull us right back up again!  The testing of our faith makes us stronger in Him.  Hang in there, it will all be over shortly!
 
If you need to talk more, feel free to write me at peggym@his-forever.com (HOME) or peggym@rcc.com (WORK).
 
Love from your sister in Yahshua!
Peggy
www.his-forever.com