I am finding it harder and harder to hope.  Please pray I may hang on.

If the Rapture comes soon, that will be wonderful.

But Jesus said to "occupy until I come".  Even though I am more or less
too old and sick to occupy anything, I am doing my best to be a light
to my son and his family, who are not believers.  I am trying to be of
some use.  I am the care giver for my husband, 24/7, and he says he is
"on borrowed time", hanging on to be with me.

I am really grateful to God for giving me this loving husband who wants
to hang on to be with me.  If he goes and I am left (in death, not
Rapture, for we will both go if Rapture comes soon) I fear for my
sanity.

My illness porphyria undermines mental health.  I fight very hard to
have mental health as well as physical health, but Satan has all but
taken everything.

I am also grateful for my Messianic community in Santa Fe, Yeshua
Malkenu.  We meet late Saturday afternoon in the guest house of
members' home.  All there are struggling in some way.  All have real
faith, but some are fragile in the hope department, for Satan has been
very strong working against us.

I hope those of you are right who say that those who are strongly
opposed by Satan are on the right path!

Maranatha

Mariel