Please pray for me......I think I have to move....When I awoke this morning, I was SOOoooo tired, I wasn't sure I could make it through today (friday).  This long 3+ hour daily commute is really zapping my strength, and I've only been doing it for one week.
 
Plus, I got a hold of Chase (who has my mortgage) and inquired about refinancing to pay off all my medical bills and credit card debts from when I was ill and unable to work.  I was honest with them that I had been off work for almost a year, depleted my funds and had to live off credit cards (especially to pay all these doctor/lab bills).  My fico score is too low, they say, even though I have paid everything on time for years!  They will only offer me a mortgage in the 8.5% range (when the market is 5.5-6%), plus $19,000 in FEES/Points!!!!!!  I about passed out.  I checked with another broker, and he didn't know if he could do anything for me at all, unless I had been on my new job for 2 years.  Gulp!
 
My credit card companies have jacked up my interest rates to the 20%+ range, because I have so much unsecured debt.
 
The Big Squeeze is on, apparently.....obviously!
 
If I sell my condo I can pay off all my debts.
 
SOooooo it seems that everything is pointing toward selling my condo, and getting an apt. down near my new job.  I don't know if I have the energy to pull off a move like this and work long hours and commute 3+hrs/day until I move.  Once I am moved the commute stress will be gone, the financial stress will be gone, I will have locked in my gains on my condo and realized them, so if the real estate bubble bursts like the dot.com bubble burst, I won't be left "stuck" with a mortgage higher than the value of my home.  But can I cope with all this stress of moving and selling my condo, and showing it, and people coming and going, and offers and counter offers and negotiating.... on top of everything else?  I can see why Hollywood actors hire business managers to "do" all this for them.
 
I thought that WITH this new position, my "JOB" experience (near death illness, death of loved one, and best friends deserting me and accusing me of some secret sin as the reason behind all my troubles)  would be over......apparently not quite......actually now that I think about it, I think JOB had to move too after he was healed, right?
 
God, I hope the rapture is SOOOOOON!!!
 
I'm feeling a bit discouraged and overwhelmed.....I wish my Dad was still here to confer with.
 
Just say a prayer for me, if you would please.
 
I guess, judging by my "circumstances" that God wants me to move.  Things seem to be lining up that way.  I like my new job, and the people I am working with.  The move will put me MUCH closer to Calvary Chapel Costa Mesa church.....I really like Pastor Chuck Smith.  (He loves monitoring prophecy fulfillment and teaching about past fulfillments.)  The move will solve just about all my problems (commute, financial).  Its just being able to get through all that I have to do to get there that scares me, with my fragile health condition.
 
So, I guess this is my prayer request: that everything will go smoothly, the smoothest move in history, the smoothest real estate sale in history, low stress and favor at work for the duration.  Too much to ask????
 
Oh, one more thing, that I don't become sick due to all the stress.  That's a weakness for me with my health condition.  I'm still in recovery.
 
Chin up.....I can do all things through Christ, I can do all things through Christ, I can do all things through Christ.........
 
One more thing....I need "peace" about all this.  I'm not sure I have it.
 
Maybe I just need more time to pray about all this.  Or maybe if I find a nice place to move to, I will be more excited about it, to offset the drudgery and stress of it all.
 
I've always learned that all three of the following things must line up to know the will of God:
 
1) What you think God wants you to do does not conflict with scripture
2) Circumstances will point the way
3) God's Peace.  This peace is the final umpire.  If you don't have it, you are not to make a move.  I'm not sure I have this yet.  Or maybe the flesh is getting in the way, or fear.
 
Anyway, thanks for all your support!  I really do appreciate it.
 
I think I will post this on Five Doves.  Things seem to go better after I post a prayer request on Five Doves.  God Bless Five Doves!
 
 

Maranatha!
Deborah
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