Hello, John and Doves,
Sister Susan, your feeling
has been felt achingly by many, many brides-to-be. Their
fiancées have told them something like:
"In my Father's house are many
rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to
prepare a place for you.
"And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me
that you also may be where I am." John 14:2-3
What woman does not wait
eagerly (almost to the point of despairing, for the depth of her
passion for Him) for her beloved betrothed to return?
Of course, He is always with
her in her heart,
" 'And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to
the end of the age.' " Matthew 28:20
Susan B (11 Apr 2011)
"Urgency in Spirit"
Lately I seem to be wishing and praying with all my might "Jesus,
Jesus, Lord - please return quickly".
Is this wrong? Sometimes I think of all the lost souls still to
be taught the word of the Lord and I wonder if it is wrong to want
Jesus to return as speedily as possible.
Yet - I can find no joy in the world. I am suffering from some
depression but even so I have imagined myself happy and with everything
perfectly as it should be in my life here on earth (house, car, money
etc) - and even that does not impress me at all. I simply want to
Is anybody else feeling the same way?
I try to not doubt when day after day nothing happens - in my mind I'm
still not convinced the rapture is pre trib - mid trib or post trib -
but that does not really matter. What does matter is the urgency
of my pleading with the Lord to bring His loved ones home.
I had a terrible shock the other night. I was at my Mum's home
for dinner (she is 87 and very independent) and I said "wouldn't it be
wonderful if the Lord came soon to gather us all to Him?" She
immediately said "no - I'm not ready I still have things I want to
do".!! I felt alarmed that she would feel that way. My
sister (her eldest daughter) is dying slowly of cancer - it's
been a long and hard fight and she is now off chemotherapy as there is
no more they can do. My immediate thought was "oh how selfish of
Mum to want to stay in the world" - but then I wondered if I was the
one being selfish in wanting so badly to go to my heavenly home.
Can anybody help me with these conflicting thoughts? We are told
to be "watching and waiting" for our Saviour so surely it is something
to long for with one's heart?
Thanks in advance and
God bless you all,
YSIC, Susan B.