Hi, sister Karen!  How wonderful to meet you!

I know exactly what you were feeling when you found out the Lord had taken Anna Mae!  I felt that way in 1993 when He took my only grandbaby, Nicole.  What I felt was “betrayed”, because I trust Father Yahweh to take care of everything, and I felt like if He had wanted to, He could have healed her (the hospital punctured her throat when they put a breathing tube in when she was 4 days old).  And I was 40 years old!!! I even asked Him if He knew Nicole was going to die at a week old, why did He even let Shelly GET pregnant in the first place! Well, of course I know a lot of the reasons now that He took her, and that it was for the best, but at the time, all I felt was hurt and betrayal. And like you, I stayed angry at Him for quite some time.  The anger with the Lord left in about 6 months, but the extreme pain of her loss lingered for almost 13 years!  It ended (mostly) when the Spirit prompted me to put this poem down on paper.  It’s called “Through the Garden Sprayed With Dew”. One day, you’ll be able to do the same with Anna Mae.

http://his-forever.com/through_the_garden_sprayed_with_dew.htm

That was a beautiful letter, Karen, and I thank you for sharing it with us.

Love from your sister in Yahshua!

Peggy
www.his-forever.com