Dear
Doves,
To
those of you who may have read my response yesterday to Kay’s letter about her
children, I was hoping you could help me unravel a couple of things regarding
witnessing to friends and loved ones and the way God sends us messages when we
least expect them.
Last
Friday I witnessed to a young admin at work about the soon return of our
Lord. She is about 25ish, tall,
beautiful and very sweet. She says she
loves the Lord…but she is living for the world. She works at Hooters part-time,
models a lot and also parties quite frequently on the weekends. I tried to talk to her about what God’s word
says in 1 Jn. 2:15-17 about not loving the world, but she said …like my son,
she doesn’t want to think about it because it traumatizes her and then she just
won’t be able to live her life. She
wants to get married, have children, and watch them grow up and if Jesus came
back now it would put an end to her plans.
I tried to bring the subject up again today, and you know I could
actually see the raw fear on her face.
It was like she knew what I was telling her was the truth but she just wasn’t
able to face it. She saw the tears in my
eyes and asked me if she had offended me. I hugged her close, and held her face in my
hands, as a mother would her daughter and told her no, that I loved her and
that it made me so sad that she would rather trade the eternal for the
temporal. I asked her if she knew of a groom who would want to come for a bride
who was apathetic and nonchalant about his return. She said no, but truly she just doesn’t
understand. Choices, choices, choices…
and I have to think back to when I was her age, a young struggling, single
mother, who’s last thought, was on the Lord’s return and though her response
saddens me so…I’ve been there too!
I
had also told you of the tags on my truck, and how I hoped that over the years
that I have had them that they have possibly reached a soul or two for Christ
along the way. So today when I leave
work there is a note on my windshield that said: “You are blessed by the Lord,
I love your “Jesus things” on your car-He is praiseworthy! (John 4:8)” I also have a car magnet I ordered from Abide
Ministries in FL that says Jesus for King in ‘08, and my church’s worship choir
and praise band sticker. It brought tears to my eyes as I read it, because I
felt like the Lord was speaking thru the note saying “Yes, they have reached
souls for me”. Although I don’t quite understand the reference to (John 4:8),
it being “For His disciples had gone away into the city to buy food.” Other
than the fact that it is from chapter 4, a Rapture number and 8 for 2008, and
it is from the parable of the Samaritan woman meeting her Messiah from John’s
marvelous post the other day! Thoughts or
comments anyone??
Also back in January, my son had been arrested
yet again for prescription fraud, and I had pleaded with God to let me know
what I needed to do. He woke me one morning and I felt Him speak into my spirit
that I needed to let him go and let God deal with him. He told me that my son was walking in
disobedience and that I needed to turn my face away from him for a season. He said that He loved Jason and what he
needed was His Father’s discipline, and that Jason would not seek Him until he
was in a place of complete brokenness.
Then, when he turned away from the disobedience he would see His face at
last. (His earthly father walked out on
us when he was just six weeks old and never came back. He died when Jason was nine.) That very morning, a couple of hours later as
I was driving to work, a utility truck of some sort pulled right out in front
of me seemingly from out of nowhere.
Because he was so close in front of me, I couldn’t help but see his tag.
It was AZ-5666. The instant I saw it God spoke to me again saying “from the beginning
to the end…My Grace supersedes mans evil”.
At that moment I knew that God was taking Jason and bringing him through
this trial to make him a stronger man in Christ. (Phil 1:6)
I
do not believe in coincidences or in strange occurrences. I believe God has an intimate hand in
everything that takes place in our lives, even though many times we’re too busy
and self-absorbed to notice or listen for His still small voice.
One
last note, my birthday is April 27th and with all the excitement
about First fruits and this weekend, in particular the 27th being a
most remarkable possibility for our departure; I told the Lord the other day
that although I’m not real big on birthday presents, I could think of nothing
I’ve ever wanted and dreamed of more than His return, and if it were to happen
on my birthday… well O happy day!. I
never had a wedding, although I’ve been married twice but Oh, OH! How I have dreamed of THE WEDDING of a
lifetime!!! Hope to see you all
there! Just a little while from now, we
are going to see THE KING! Yeah!!
Thank You Jesus that You are coming
quickly! Amen. Even so, come Lord Jesus!
Maranatha!
Cathy
Matamoros