from Danmark 22.o4.o7
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Dear friend, - dont even think about commit suicide, because Jesus loves you so deeply, that He gave His life on Calvary for saving and redeeming you.
You are so special in His creation, no one is like you, - no one ! - No one can do what you can do, for Jesus you are a Jewel in His treasury, and He want you as a Jewel in His Crown, - dont you think He is worth it ?
 
For several years back, when I was young, and felt that no one loves me, I have a great troubles in my sexual life, who was: I dont now who I realy love, and whom I realy could love, male or female ? - and so on, great trouble in a young males life.
 
I talk to a psychiatrist, but it just became worse, some time I think they have to be released them self, before given advice to others. It all became to much for me, so I took my own life.
 
But I forgot that I - and so are you, - is only a creation, - our life belong to God, He have created us on that way, to a close realationship with Him, so I have no rigth to take my life, neither have you !
 
But I did, and have a very special experience. I walked in a desert of Shadows, with other, they looked terrible, and I was so tire, so I ask them to stop and take me with them, - one answered me, saying: you dont belong to us ! - and then I heard a warm voice saying to me: Jan, you may never do that again, because if you do it, you have to follow this Shadow walk, until it is the rigth time for your death, - but I dont want you to die at all, dont forget that.
 
Then I looked down, and saw the nurses and doctors, working very hard to call me back, and in a splitsecond I vent back to life again. - But for a week I could not say a word, and I still have some problems on my body. - But Jesus called me back, - Praise to the Lord !
 
So dont even think about commit suicide, perhaps the world or your family dont like you, - but are you sure ??? - are you realy sure on that ???
 
One thing I can tell you for sure, I know from my own life, - God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit love you so deeply. So repent and give your life totaly to Jesus Christ, and He will take care of you, a dance of roses ? - no, - but you cant imagine what He have to you, before you decide to follow Him, and Him alone, - may Jesus fill you with joy from this moment, when you take your decision to follow Him !
 
For as the Bible tells, there is no one like you, you are not a copy, - you are something very special - Praise to the Lord, - He is not making copies, - He is making originals - Jewels !
 
If the world still feels dark, then believe in me, there is ligth in the end of the tunnel, - and as more you are given over to Jesus, the more He will surround you, and fill you with His love, peace and joy, just listen to and follow Him,- He is worth it, - and so are you !
 
In the Love of Jesus - jan mikael ><> <><