Hello Cat......dig those claws in and hang onto that limb  (ha,  even if
you fall you know you'll land on your feet  !)

I'm sorry you're getting stones thrown at you - perhaps it's part of the
persecutions we are to expect........
No, you're not the only one sensing the nearness of our Lord...........

We just have to see that none of us have all the pieces of the puzzle,  or
all of the understanding,  your missionary friends are seeing from an
entirely different perspective,  be kind and gentle with them.........and
continue to pray for the Lord the strengthen them and minister to them.
Also maybe,  sometimes there is great feeling of urgency or NOWness given
to some,  perhaps so we'll pray and intercede more diligently - and other's
have a great sense of hurry and reach one more person..........we all have
a part to do ..........

Be encouraged my friend,  and try to focus on what the Lord might have you
to do at this time........

God Bless You,