Hi John and Doves,

Another awesome testimony from www.mylifeafter.com:

From: Robert, Male, 19
Occupation/Vocation:  Salesman
Location: CA, United States
Date: April 7, 2004 3:56 am

MAY BE PROFANE TO SOME (No my new brother, not profane, your testimony
PROCLAIMS the Grace of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ!)

Since the time I was 13 years old, I had had been attracted to the same sex.
I did not understand those feelings, but considering I grew up in a
Christian household, I believed "being gay" was a sinful life. As I went
through high school, those desires simmered, never acted upon, but present
and growing nonetheless. I prayed till I cried that God would heal me of
this "curse" He put on me, and slowly drew away from God. I decided it was
one or the other, God or Gay, and that God would not create in someone such
strong desires, so therefore God was non-exsistent. I entertained thoughts
of acting apon my desires, but for the time being, pornography sufficed.
After 3 or so years of living life without God, and still being "in the
closet" about my desires, I still could not convince myself (1) that being
gay was OK, (2) that God had non-exsistent, or had forsaken me so. I was
completely depressed, angry with everyone, and even considered suicide.

Then I went to see "The Passion of the Christ".

I cried during the beatings, and the crusifixtion, and realized I could not
longer kid myself into "there is no God, so being 'gay' is OK". As I left
the theater I could hardly breathe, and the drive home was frightening
considering I was uncontrollably shaking the whole time. That night, I
prayed. Only this time, instead of being angry with God, and requesting that
He lift the affliction He has put apon me... I acknowledged that I had a
choice in the matter. I instead prayed that God would give me the strength
to overcome any sinful homosexual temptations. The very next morning was the
beginning of the rest of my life. Any erotic desires I had once had for men,
were now very disgusting to me. Anytime thoughts of that nature came into my
head, it was a knee-jerk reaction... God transformed me, that which had once
tempted me - sickened me, and that which at once seemed so unattainable (a
healthy, God-pleasing heterosexual relationship), was now within my grasp.
From night to day, God cleansed me. That gap I had always felt that nothing
could fill, God filled. Things that at one time bothered me, I now leave to
God, and things that once fascinated me, now are uninviting in comparison to
God's light. He has completed me.

Maranatha,
David
www.soundanalarm.net